Author: ejanchen2

September is National Suicide Awareness Month. I’ve stood on that edge of life and death many times and every time, I questioned whether or not God was there. I wrote this piece because I was confused. I still am, but I think I am a little more at peace now. Because I understand a little […]

Beautiful ribbons of blood red smoke Underpinnings of a song once sung Smoky waters, lurking prey Haunting like the heart you broke Panic rising in the crackling flames Weaving a tapestry of fire burn lines Drowning with dearest death in my wake With no one near to take the blame The sliver moon sang me […]

Dear Reader, I never intended to publish this piece. I wrote it when I was very angry, at the world and at myself and everything around me. I’ve since calmed down, but here’s a peek into my head when I first started taking medication a year ago. ______________________________________________________________________________ I stare wistfully into the palm of […]

There’s a space against my wall i’ve avoided for long So long in fact, it’s collected some dust So long that it’s seen many men come and go I brush the cobwebs aside, I brush my tears away Today i’ve decided i will clear away the grey I’ll fill it with memories so painful they […]

Pure white frost, glitter and gloss Dotting the tiger-striped scape Haunting memories straight criss cross Lights blink and dark holes gape Watery crest crowns the sandy shore Marching to an eerie celestial beat Sinking slowly to the kingdom of lore Beaming streaks in lines so neat Wavy and fluid, calming and clean Blue eyes flickering […]

“Tell him. All your problems. Tell him how you’re sick,” my mother urged.  I take in a deep breath. Slowly, I say, “I went to see a psychiatrist. I have anxiety, depression, and borderline personality disorder…” He cuts me off.  “It’s not that serious. I can fix you. Give me four treatments.” I am stunned. […]

Flowers can sprout any time of day Any year, any month, second or hour  Flowers, I’ve heard, need light to grow Such that their petals stay pretty  This little flower blossoms by sun Craning her neck toward crystalline  Light she soaks into her narrow frame Slowly nudging sleepy eyes to wake Shoulders broad to take […]

I wrote this poem when I was a junior in high school. I found it when I was on an airplane coming back from the Bay. I was home but wasn’t home at the same time; this poem reflects that sentiment. The storm hovers over yonder shore Weeping in sorrow over the barren moor Its […]

The weight of the world rests on my shoulders Calm, i sit assured What they don’t know can’t hurt them Pacing heart, racing feet, running away I can’t hide What they don’t know can’t hurt them I’m trying to find you but i can’t find The voice that’s humming far away I can’t fix what […]

The caged bird flutters, wishing to escape But she’s heavy, grounded, chained To the bone, to the core Unable to fly The caged bird cries deep from the soul Her feathers fall one by one Leaves in autumn two by two Until her tears dry The caged bird wrestles the iron hold Claws, scratches, not […]