Author: ejanchen2

You say you know what it’s like to live in my mind. You say you know what it’s like to be in my world. You say you know what it’s like to be me. So you fucking say.  You tell me it’ll go away. You tell me it’s just blowing up in my head. You […]

A Looking Glass into the Manically Depressed *I tried journaling for a month to snapshot a period of my life. Here’s what happened.* Thursday, October 8, 2020 I’ve been trying to read a book for sometime. I actually started reading it when I was a freshman in college. It’s called The Alchemist. Back before quarantine […]

In the morning I woke Just the same Wine glasses, beer stains Liquor to tame I don’t know how These walls you overcame Damned alcohol tears It’s you I blame. Whiskey eyes, tequila sighs Your finger sliding down my thighs Playing a game with dangerous die You slowly undo all my ties Eyes flutter open, […]

October 10, 2020 Hi Ella . . . How are you? When you read that, you’ll probably feel the anxiety make your heartbeat pulse irregularly. “Hi Ella,” followed by the three dots in the text bubble that surfaces, disappears, then resurfaces again. It’s the not knowing more than anything else that’s scary. What could they […]

lone tree’s shadow delicately walking middle of the parking lot stands a peach silhouette red lipstick fingertips her body hangs i spy with dragon eyes a lady silhouette lashes drip mascara tears weeping leaves framing the crown of Death’s silhouette pavement rising to catch stiletto steps ankles roll through silent parking lot until i see […]

When I was a child I used to see Smoke billowing all around me Smoke from chimneys Smoke from cigarettes Smoke in shrines So even as a child I knew Fire was always a part of me. A little girl framed loosely in Stovetop flames, gentle silhouette Tentatively, gingerly her eyes Never leave her finger […]

In the deep dark depths  Of the ocean blue, You never really know Just what you might find. What’s lurking around the corner What’s hiding, biding, waiting For you to sink and fall Deeper and deeper into the  Dark depths of the ocean blue.  In the deep dark depths  Of the ocean blue,  Secrets lie […]

相家的時候就聽小時候喜歡聽的歌。 If you’re ever missing home, just listen to the songs of your childhood.  1. 知足 Satisfaction 怎麼去擁有 一道彩虹 How does one own a rainbow? 怎麼去擁抱 一夏天的風 How do you embrace the summer’s wind? 天上的星星 笑地上的人 The stars above laugh at the people below 總是不能懂 不能覺得足夠 They’ll never understand what enough is 如果我愛上 你的笑容 If […]

Dear Dr. Amy, My time with you was brief. You have been my therapist for a little over three months now, and when I first started seeing you, I thought I was getting better. When I wrote my last letter to Dr. Leah, I didn’t think that I’d have to write another one so soon. […]

Hovering over my shoulder Your deep voice ringing Right next to my ears. Invisible man, perhaps I can’t see you But surely you are there. How could you disappear when I Need you the most? You shape shift to blend into shadows So no one actually sees but me They hear me talking to walls […]