GLASS

In the deep dark depths 

Of the ocean blue,

You never really know

Just what you might find.

What’s lurking around the corner

What’s hiding, biding, waiting

For you to sink and fall

Deeper and deeper into the 

Dark depths of the ocean blue. 

In the deep dark depths 

Of the ocean blue, 

Secrets lie in plain sight

Left to rot in poisonous truth

Unclaimed, unwanted, unheard

Whispers echoing through still water

As I sink and fall, diving 

Deeper and deeper into the

Dark depths of the ocean blue. 

In the deep dark depths

Of the ocean blue, 

I was never expecting to drown

I thought the water

Would rise to hug me

Like the words you left

To rot in poisonous truth

Engulfed me, surrounded me,

Swallowed me whole,

Unclaimed, unwanted, unheard,

Undone. 

But the deeper I sink

Into the depths of the ocean blue,

There is nothing but calm

Chilling me to my core

Faces shifting in masks

Faces haunting me as I beg

The still water to envelop me

And heal the open wounds

You used to define me. 

For the water not only cleanses

But muddles the brain

Fogging the memory until 

I forget.

Who would’ve thought

Lines could blur so perfectly

Deep in the depths of the ocean blue?

No matter how I try to wake

Try to swim ashore,

I can only lie flat, face up

A sinking corpse with a beating heart.

I used to call this true sadness 

But now I see it’s just

Inner peace. 

I watch the sky change colors

Just above me, but I can’t tell

What hour, what time of day it is

I guess in the water

Everything moves in slow motion

But at least in the water

Flames can no longer consume me.

Because not even fires can burn 

In the deep dark depths of the ocean blue.

But as the sky changes color,

So does the water

Catching the light, soaking up

The blood running from my veins

Dancing in ribbons in slow motion

Weaving a pattern, synchronizing

With each beat of my pulse.

Turning the deep dark depths 

Of the ocean blue

Into scarlet waves. 

In this bed of water, 

I feel naked. 

I feel the fibers of my skeleton

Vibrate and unravel

Bone by bone, 

Until I am left with just skin,

Just a scarred landscape

Not even the ocean blue

Can fix. 

So I break apart and shatter

Just like porcelain

Just like glass

Just like the bottle by my side

As it falls and sinks

Deeper and deeper into the depths

Of the ocean blue. 

And maybe I can’t put myself

Back together

At least not in the way 

I used to be

But then I’ll carve open 

The glass ceiling and finally

Finally see what’s above the water

Finally staunch the bloodflow

Finally breathe.

At last.